memories paralyze

a smell
a sign
a sudden feeling

then it all goes to hell and I forgot why I came
I forgot why I thought: 'I shall try again'
in my mind I'm alone with no one to blame
I am surrounded by those who don't know
who can't see inside at my gluttonous Shame

a look
a glance
a briefest sound

my thoughts are staking out their prey,
creeping in darkness, stalking the night,
binding me in musing too dark for day.
I cannot remember how to take flight,
tied by these bonds I weaved merrily while it was Light.