rain in kyo

So I love the Resident Evil movies.
But...I feel the need to note at least one inconsistency.
In the third film; Resident Evil: Extinction, the caravan is attacked by crows that have been feeding on 'dead' zombies.. The crows are trying to eat our various heroes.
Only problem is that the crows would have turned cannibalistic, not aggressive towards humans.
They would have eaten each other. [o_o]
Anyways...minor issue in a hugely cool movie.
I love Alice's hair, and her gun/knife skills.
Its also a unique move because Alice is the only one with a character shield.
Its best not to get attached to any of the random, cute troopers and soldiers, cuz they all die in some heart-stopping way.
Alice never has any weakness in guys. She likes some of them, but they always conveniently die before she can get too attached. One less thing to think about, I suppose...
If you really think about it, love has caused many heroes to fail, or at least stopped them from becoming as cool as they could have.
Think Spider man, Superman, and Bat man (though with Bat man she died early enough that she is more like fuel for his greatness).
All that to say, love isn't all its said to be.
I thinks its more the thought of love...just like it's the thought of sex that sells things on tv.

dentist office

Why is there always a fish tank in the dentist office??
Are fish supposed to make nervous people feel better?
Little orange blurbing fishes? Talk to me fishy!
'Calm your thoughts my dear...it won't hurt too bad...mahahaha!'

And all the calming pictures of waterfalls and flowers, woods and quiet country roads, and the magazines...forbes, and sports illustrated mostly.
Seems fitting, right?
After all there are more important things then me going to the dentist...

I actually don't understand why dentists scare people, because it doesn't hurt very much, its actually kinda like getting a massage...someone is giving you one on one physical attention. Just enjoy it! Heck...I know I will.
Though it does annoy me when they say: 'dr so and so will be right with you.'
Then 20 minutes later he shows up.
Seriously, I'm old enough to be told it will be a few minutes. ^_^

tell all your friends, the buddha's not coming back

so coffee. why do people drink it? it stains your teeth and it's nasty and bitter tasting
alright, so some people dump 13 sugar packets into it. (ruthiey ^_^)
and that makes it somewhat bearable. but honestly, why bother in the first place?
tea is so much taster, besides not needing sugar or cream. and there are lots
of different kinds of tea, whereas there is only one kind of coffee, even if they
do try to cover up the taste with lots of other artificial flavors. i mean seriously,
you think peppermint is going to cover up the taste???
any coffee drinkers are free to comment on the virtues of coffee. I'd love to hear
your side of the story. :D

Scream

you know how people with autism repeat the same activity over and over?
i'm that way about music.
i have 2 cds that I will listen to right now,
and only those.
Anberlin: Cities,
and Kill Hannah: Until There's Nothing Left of Us
i even try to listen to other cds, but no, they just don't sound right.

I wanna have one of those zen pools to sit by.
night time is the best time, especially when you're alone, and even better
when you have something like a zen pool to sit by.

(jelly beans are most delicious if you suck them one by one,
and spit out the ones that taste like lipgloss, or popcorn)

why are public bathrooms always so freaking bright?
I suppose they are meant to be a get in and get out experience, but still...
make them a little more interesting.
ever notice the 'bathroom non-stare'? people won't meet eyes with someone
coming out of a stall, like it's somehow embarrassing to have been using the toilet.
lets not admit what really goes on in there, in the 'ladies room'. (^_^)

those silly things we feel

i'm not afraid to give my heart to you
not afraid to show you all my love too
i'm just afraid you won't wanna let me go
the time will pass and i will have to know...
what else is out there?

excuse me darling, i'm leaving now
could i have my heart back now?

so why do you look like i'm taking your heart?
i'm just asking for what's always been...my heart
i was afraid you wouldn't want to give it back
it's nothing you had before me, nothing you'll lack...
it's just my precious heart.

please excuse me. i'm leaving now
i'd like to have my heart back

it's the happy high

so having out of body experiences is really odd, i gave blood
yesterday, and managed to pass out again. (that makes 4 times,
all of them while giving blood). i have had some strange 'dreams'
while being unconscious. once i was looking out the window when
i passed out and suddenly i was floating in the sky with a black
balloon. then i woke up to the many faces around me. it's really
odd. you're body gets all tingly and numb, then your eyes won't
stay open anymore, then dreams, and then it's all over.
but afterward, it's amazing. yesterday i felt like i had taken
speed, all the blood rushes to your head and you get a huge rush.
amazing. it's worth it.
go give blood people. :)

creating master pieces in haunted houses on the edge of a dark town.

I'm so glad I'm not french. those bouirbouir people sound pretty stuck up. :)
just kidding, i'm only a little upset with a certain french wanna-be-person.

All is fine in paradise. So go to sleep and don't worry about me anymore.
Nothing ever even happened.

Sleep

i love sleeping. who doesn't?
those people who stay up till all hours and say they can live on 2 hours a night, they aren't thinking right. :D
all those late nights messed with their minds, fooling them into thinking they can honestly survive on dribbles of REM sleep.
here are some random facts from a sleep research company.

'Daily sleep in humans declines sharply from a peak of 17 to 18 hours at birth to 10 to 12 hours at age 4 and then more gradually to a fairly stable adult duration of 7 to 8.5 hours by age 20.

The average young adult seems to need about 8 hours of sleep per night to function optimally during waking hours. Some people, however, sleep just 6 or 7 hours a night, while others need more than 9 hours to feel rested. The elderly spend less time in deep NREM sleep, and their sleep is more easily interrupted.'

when i get less then 7 hours of sleep i am easily irritated and argumentative. (or maybe that's how i am anyways. ^_^)
anyways all this to say, get enough sleep, for all our sakes. ^_^

spinning gods, just outta sight

yeah, lucky you
cuz in your dreams
life still goes on.

those pretty castles in your
skies.
abstract beauties
spin and wheel.

please don't wake up, i'll kiss
you back to sleep.
i see this fantasy crumble,
sink away into mindless mumble.

...cuz in your dreams...
life still goes on.

missing you...
-your emerandom

the mindless ramblings of an inservice. (u_u)

there is a certain power
to seeing you, sitting alone
very quiet and calm after
doing that to all of us.
especially when i didn't see
you do it.
you aren't obviously angry
you've accepted the
consequences.
it makes me wonder as to
motivations and what
your thoughts are now.
are you sorry, i wanna ask.
would you do it again, if i
gave you the chance?
but you are deep inside your
shell.
hide away from my eyes.
even as your blank eyes stare
back into mine, there's nothing
behind them that i can see.
it's all hidden so deep cuz you
don't wanna get hurt anymore...

forever never...alone

isn't it always that way?
for everyone there's always
something more important then me...

meaningless song

4 times i've given all my love
but all those words mean nothing
cuz there's nothing below or above
your meaningless song that you sing

im not a god that i wait forever
so take it or leave it; sincere love
this could be pretty, forever never
my dear, take off your dainty glove

5's luck of the draw i think
ancient blessings on your failure
your fragile boat's about to sink
one answer will make you sure

4 times i've given my love
but all of my words mean nothing
cuz there's nothing below or above
your meaningless song that you sing...

mess of the mind

here i am lost in this mess...
confused and im winding
mixed in with the rest.

where did i lose you? myself, all alone
dark magic that
faint light never shown

where am i? just crawling along?
confused, and i'm crying.
did i fail all alone?

my spider

i think i love you
but im not quite sure
this spider in me keeps
saying im not
the spider is danger
and im danger like a
spider...

...scream
and then again, tell
me not to be afraid.
come and put your arms
around me
baby spider crawls back
home
but home is where my
heart is, and that is
never far.

for her...

should i say goodbye?
are you leaving yet?
cause it seems your heart
left long ago

if you didn't want me.
you could've said so
it'd have hurt me less
then this...

i know you have others
much better then me...
but you could've at least
said goodbye

if you didn't want me...

if you don't want me
just say so
should i say goodbye, darling?

never pretend

wander on in, my faithless love
kiss me and love me, tell me you try
wander on out, my faithless love
you kill me, darling, you're making me die

wander on back to your homeland
touch lips to the girl who waits
wander on out to the waste land
find other girls who's love to sate

wander on in, my faithless darling
touch me and love me, tell me you care
wander on out, my faithless darling
you're killing me, my heart has a tear

so wander away, but aways come back
to kiss me and hold me, to love me again
so wander on home, aways come back
my heart full of love, and I'll never pretend.

cause i love you

wake to other songs

come down, come back
close your tired eyes now
i missed the ending
do you know i love you?
break my heart

no fear will now attack you
close your pretty eyes now
i missed the ending
you never knew i loved you.
closed foreverlasting

forgive me, for i lack
nothing lovely ever dies
i missed the ending
did you know i loved you?
i never said.

my silence burns worse
lovely wisdom never lies
i missed your ending
did i say i loved you?
break my heart

come down, come back
close your tired eyes
i missed the ending
you never knew i loved you
i never said.

never speak to me again,
i'll, i'll lay you in this grave.
i'll, i'll sing this lullaby.
'goodnight. goodnight, goodnight
darling, wake to better songs'

too late at night...

if someone was the middle of the ocean, do you think they would know they were wet?

how can people be so clueless when it comes to being loved?
there are times, more often then should be, that i would swear no one would care if i killed myself...
then i see a brief glimpse at how many people actually know my name, how many random kids look up to me, how many adults actually respect me.
but then i think, most of those people have seen one side of me, they think i have it all together...if they only knew...

but some of them know i don't have it all together and they love me anyways. when i can see that then i know i am wet and the ocean is very beautiful...

while i was sleeping...

hello beautiful
im awake
is it any different now?
then when I went to sleep?

i thought the world would
change.
while i was fast asleep
i guess that i was wrong.
cause nothing changed at all.

hello beautiful
i just woke up
you're just as beautiful
as you were before.

i thought the world would
change.
while i was fast asleep
but i see that i was wrong
cause nothing changed for good

hello beautiful
im awake now
you make me sigh again
just as you did before

i thought the world
would change
when i was fast asleep
but i guess that i was wrong
cause nothing changed at all.

hello beautiful
i wish i weren't awake
you're just as beautiful
as you were before

goodbye beautiful
i'm sleeping now again
perhaps i'll wake

beautiful imperfection

all i've ever wanted and don't call me lame
but all i've ever wanted was a perfect name...

the name that only god knows, eternally
will it make me like you? like them all?
little x's on my fingers, will i live eternally?
come with me, let us go to god, we will surely crawl

cause all i've ever wanted was a perfect name
it's all i've ever wanted, and don't call me lame...

what is this imperfection?
it is me, and i'm without
salvation...
imperfection is perfected
in me...